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Dearest籐籐

 

古唔倒你写咗篇Blog畀我喔衰婆~(虽然睇唔出同我有咩实际关系..不过都习惯咗你D无厘头啦!)

 

之前仲吵住要用最原始既方式--写信-_-离联络...家阵揸起笔都嫌麻烦咯...用D好QQQ既信纸写好既信.都系得半封或者大半封,然后随住现实既快速发展..E D信都变到out晒啦...然后一封封不完整既信就咁搁置响柜仔度...记载住旧去既小故事.....

 

睇倒你写比我篇嘢,感动就无咩噶啦~哇哈~~不过有种好亲切既感觉~~令我不期然捻起一首歌....<给LISA>

 

 

从清晨到夜深 你只想着一个人 爱让你耗尽了养分
 
 但谁又能保证 他只陪你走一程 还是伴你过完这一生
 
 oh lisa 别再想那个人 忘了一生中爱你也伤你最深的人
 
 总会有一天爱淡的像一杯喝不醉的余温 只让你尝到什么是永恒
 
 曾欢喜着缘分 又后悔爱太深 说感情的事没有一个准
 
 爱可以当它真 也能相信它真 在多年以后还存疑问

 

唔知你有无听过呢....系一首听落个心会变得好柔软既歌......我地之间好似经常都互相介绍D有feel既歌比大家,然后一首首歌背后,不经意咁带上一D小回忆...

 

第一首应该系<Deny>挂...仲系写梗第一篇嘢嗰阵...妳响GZNET度留咗个言比我...之后我上你website度睇.....不停播住w-inds.嘅<Deny>既粉红色website...如果无记错既话...好似叫binsetsuTV噶....好中意嗰个简单得离又好warm既小website吖...于是开始留意妳啦...(系米好惊呢~~咔咔)

 

跟住呢...可能大家都多嘢讲啦,所以一响Q度倾开就一发不可收拾啦....你好鬼好心机咁将你D霖仔经历打出离比我睇...哇...其实嗰阵我好眼训噶啦E几年离都唔记得同你讲...不过睇到你咁兴奋咁讲...我都唔知做咩兴奋埋一份.....

 

好多嘢都发生响GZNET度...大家互相睇大家写既嘢,发既相....如果我地吹过既水真系水既话...撞仔都唔洗揾人拆啦...比我地D口水浸晒噶啦...不过都系因为咁.大家认识慢慢咁越离越深...同埋发觉大家有好多共通点........无论性格啦,爱好啦,甚至连个样都经常有人话我地似...哇哈..明明我成熟性感路线你搞笑可爱路线噶嘛!

 

虽然系咁,我地都系缘HAN一面...捻落其实我地见面都系上年既事...点解会好似识咗好耐既旧朋友咁呢..E D就系一见如故啦!

 

而且你翻GZ嗰段时间,都发生唔少事...可能唔系佢地两个,我地都唔会熟得咁快.....唔会有咁多共同话题...或者真系要多谢佢地挂...听过太多对方既苦诉与安慰,唱过一次又一次既<姊妹>...最后伴侣一一离开...而我地就变得更加姊妹....

 

系囖...我地都系好喊得既人,都系D好敏感既人,都系D有少少奸狡既人...所以成日"E嘻嘻"咁奸笑完之后,就咩都讲得一轮....睇吓我地QQ D聊天记录...几多页啦...都未计开咪嗰D....有好多嘢,都唔知听过一次,讲过一次...但再次讲起...我地都仲系讲到停唔倒....

 

变....系变咗啦........你同我都变咗..你朋友话你变得无以前咁好,C兄都一样话我5再系佢中意嗰个卡夫.

其实我地系米变成我地以前口中好讨厌嗰种花心,自私既女呢....

只系现实令我地变成一个适合响现实中生存既人姐.....因为你唔伤害人,就到人地伤害你...自己都唔爱自己既话,更加唔好奢望一个可以比你自己更加爱你既人...即使佢可以短暂咁做咁既人...但永远唔好忘记你既对手系男人.....而且所有嘢都会变噶.

 

我地互相咁睇住大家一段又一段既恋爱开始然后结束...仲知道大家除咗感情外既事...家庭吖,学习吖.....有时就算同对方不断咁讲.而对方只系不断咁重复住"哦哦","系咯","唉"...但心里面都好似得到安慰咁...因为我地都了解大家感觉.而且都知道对方会明白.

 

成日都觉得人生好唏嘘,成日都觉得同我地差唔多大既人好幼稚,成日都无拉拉变得好灰......我捻系因为我地既负担其实比好多同龄人都重....

 

我地好似好多嘢都好相似...但细心捻落,好多嘢都唔同....

 

啊...突然响响个清晨空旷既森林里面深深咁呼吸~~~~~~拿拿~~~又一样in common既嘢要离啦...超强既幻想力同东拉西扯既神奇法术....

 

小籐籐..其实生活真系好需要我地坚强D,无论面对挫折又好,失恋又好,挑战又好....要做一个有自信既成熟女人真系唔容易噶...但我相信我地将来都会系好出众既女离既~~~系啊呢!?~~咔咔咔~~~

 

嗯嗯...想用翻嗰首软绵绵但听落好舒服既歌做结尾~~~

 

 

oh lisa 别在乎那个吻 忘了一生中让你被融化的那个吻
 
 总会有一天爱再也不兴奋 换来的是安稳 什么都不用再问
 
 那昨天多深的泪痕 明天耀眼的缤纷 让你变成真正的女人

 

 

 

 

 

觉唔觉得听倒一首熟悉既歌,闻到一阵似曾相识既味道,会好自然咁捻起某个人,某个地方,或者某段经历......

 

E段旋律或者系气味,就好似一个密码咁,打开记忆中既大门,引领我地翻去过去遥远而接近既回忆中...

 

以前我几乎系唔会喷香水噶,就算有时贪得意买翻去,捻住以后要日日都喷住佢,但始终都唔会坚持倒,可能觉得日日咁喷好麻烦挂.

 

到上一年生日,一位好朋友送咗支叫<望之水>既香水比我,第一次闻嗰只味既时候,系响一种好兴奋好开心既心情下噶,嗰种味道唔会好女人唔会好诱惑,但第一次闻已经好中意.

 

出咗国之后,唔知从几时开时越买越多香水,其实E边真系几乎每个人都会喷香水,特别系喷香水既男人比国内多好多好多.

 

E+次次出门口,都要烦一阵间究竟今日喷咩香水,以前遥不可及既名牌香水摆到成台都系...CHANEL,GUCCI,CK,LANCOME,YSL,ANNA SUI......

 

但系,我始终觉得E D香水对我既意义点都比唔上嗰支上年从中国带过离既<望之水>,因为嗰支系一支有回忆既香水,带住有回忆既气味.

 

然而,我好少会喷嗰支香水,可能怕会好快用晒挂.而且嗰只香水既味道并唔张扬,要细心先闻到,所以好多时我都只系拿出离自己闻一吓.

 

唔知边种香味先系代表我既香味,只系知道每次我搽亲嗰只味,同埋另一只叫<TRUE LOVE>既香水既时候,训响隔离既男朋友都会将个头贴到好近好近,好近我搽咗香水既耳珠.

 

可能因为香味只系好隐约,所以佢地会好深咁吸气,然后好似细路仔咁慢慢入睡.

 

嗯嗯,系一种好温馨好亲密既感觉.

 

唔知大家发唔发觉广州既bar都有一种特别既气味噶呢?特别系426吖,就算比人蒙住对眼带我去到嗰度,我都一定会知道嗰度系426.

 

有时甚至因为嗰阵味而觉得426好似好亲切咁...虽然事实上佢已经离我好遥远,但我眯埋眼,记忆中仲依然会传离嗰一阵味道,随之而离既系一段段陈旧但犹新既记忆.....

 

离到au之后,最初嗰间学校附近有间bar仔,有一种好似广州既bar既气味,第一次闻到既时候,我成个人窒咗窒,之后一路行一路捻起好多往事......

 

然后今次个妹翻GZ,买咗支以前我响GZ成日用既沐浴露翻离,以前每次出街前都会洗个白白先,今次用翻E种沐浴露,就好似翻到以前咁样.....

 

可能我既嗅觉特别敏感挂...但只系对一D有回忆既气味敏感.

 

而一旦遇到D有回忆既旋律,我既听觉都回变得异常敏感.

 

今日听到个朋友部电脑播梗<不得不爱>,然后心里面就有种好惆怅既感觉,好似比D回忆扯住扯住咁,而且系D悲喜交集既好复杂既回忆....

 

第一次听倒E首歌,系响恒宝地下既一间时装店度,唔知点解一听倒首歌,就有种好特别既感觉,甚至觉得好似第一次之前仲听过一次....于是我就

 

想记住几句歌词,捻住之后响网上搜索.

 

不过后离就无咗回事,直到有一轮日日夜夜咁去网吧,嗰间网吧又日日夜夜咁播住E首歌.嗰一段并唔系咩开心既回忆,但E首歌比我既第一印象系开心噶…可能之后听好多次,心情都系极端失落,所以次次听倒E首歌都有种无名既伤感.

 

不过我依然中意E首歌,可能佢既内涵,令佢更加耐听……

 

仲有既系,我觉得似乎伤心既回忆比开心既回忆更加令人印象深刻…

写梗E篇嘢既途中,我打咗几个电话翻中国,其实真系好耐冇打过电话比中国D朋友啦.

 

主要都系因为好忙好忙,而E+有时间打翻去啦,结果都揾唔倒边几个

 

最好既朋友成日叫我打电话翻去,但打咗两日,都系无人接,连打去屋K都系无人接……

 

跟住打咗比个蓝颜知己,倾咗一阵间,但感觉好似同之前好唔同咁,以前觉得佢讲嘢有时好搞有时好有道理,但E+佢讲咩我都好似无兴趣咁……然后因为电话收得唔系几好,所以我地就收咗线啦……

 

然后不断搜索自己手机上既电话簿,觉得好似无一个人系我好想同佢倾既,系因为太耐无联络,定系我有D逃避既心理呢……只系捻,可能我应该响E边真正咁重新开始,识多D E度既朋友,唔好再将个心摆咁多响GZ呢?毕竟一切都太遥远啦.…就连朋友之间既回忆,都只剩低零零碎碎几个片段.

其实我并唔中意E种感觉,曾经咁熟悉咁亲密既变得咁陌生咁遥远.

 

曾经真实发生过既变成回忆,一日一日咁远去,有种好唔真实既感觉,似乎过去既一切都只系镜花水月……所谓既朋友都有自己既生活,有自己既嘢要忙,就如我一样都响佢地既世界度销声匿迹咗好一段时间……捻到E度,我觉得好似好寂寞咁……

 

 

无奈既系,E D就系成长……

 

 

Hello~~how r u guys?!~ At this moment,I’m in my boyfriend’s house in Canberra…so as u r seeing ,I cant type Chinese in his computer ah~~~whooooops~ but fortunately,I can renew da blog of my msn space.on da contrary,I couldn’t do this in my own computer….T.T

 

Allow me to introduce my sweetheart first~~his name is BRONWYN.this mischievous imp is an Australian n swiss hybrid.Bronwyn is three years older than me.however,this guy sometimes just act childly,moreover,my cheeky man asked me to hav sex with him at da first time we met.i didn’t follow him absolutely.furthemore,I considered this guy as a womanizer,a playboy.(if u guys remember,he’s da very man I mentioned  in my wretch blog.)as a metter of fact,I was crush on him at that moment.

 

During last work trip to Canberra.i happened to met him again.n this time I been there,he asked me to cinema for a horror film.now I know y it was a horrible one.coz while I was trembling before da terror shots,he cuddled me in his arms n then keep holding my hand until dat film finished.thus,we became a couple rapidly.

 

Actually,I will call Bronwyn to see this blog later.(dat guy is hitting a shower n singing an unknown song….)by this chance,I jus want to tell my sweetie Bronwyn, u  r da second man in my life with whom I loved at da first sight with such strong feeling.but the end of da 1^st time told me dat this kind of luv might hurt u deeply with unforgettable pain.

Anywayz,I dare to try one more time.since we both believe in feeling.why don’t we build up a new love base on respect n faith.i don’t think u’ll just come n go I my life.do u get me??~~~

 

These days,I ate many tailand foods.they r out of da world,yaaamiiii~~~!!da day before yesterday, I made friend with a nice Korean girl.she’s not only gorgeous,but also very kind.u know,many Korean gals always giving others cold shoulders.last night,I shared a room with her,her English is not very fluent though,she said “hav a sweet dream” to me with a gentle voice.every time u look at heru can see her lovely smile.

 

By chance,I heard a song from her mini DVD player.it seems I’ve heard it before.dat’s da very song played in da internet bar very often.when I was leaving Guangzhow,I went to dat internet bar frequently,I heard this song constantly.it’s really remind me those down-hearted memories.but it was a beautiful song.i was told by the Korean girl da song called <Tonight>,sang by Turbo.

(now this song is playing as the background music of my space~~~)

 

So wat have u up to guys~~!!??though I can’t use QQ for online chat,if u happy to,u may leave a message to me on this blog.i will glad to see ur message definitely~~~

 

Well….my man gotta fininsh his shower~~~I’ll take a towel for him n than wrap him like a large spring roll~~~wahahahaha~~

 

I ll catch u later~~all kisses n hugs~~~GGGGG

 

 

哇咔咔...发觉自己其实好中意人地约我出去架!

 

今晚要多谢CHARLENE请我食咗好好味嘅韩国菜....嗯嗯...好耐都未食过咁正噶牛肉啦~~~~

 

同埋hopefully...我地无几耐就可以一齐去蒲啦...>O<....DARLING HBR气氛超级好嘅CLUB...哇哈哈

 

得闲记得多D寻吓我啦哇...

 

有D眼训添...不过心情好好噶呢E一刻...GUD NITE...DEAR DEAR~~~~

寻晚通顶...成晚冇翻过屋K...直到今朝11点几先翻到屋炸~~~~

 

哎呀...攰鬼死我啦!!!>O<

 

冇以为我出去欢啊...其实系翻工炸....唉~~真阴公啊....通宵夜班都无double pay...

 

讲起离应该讲翻寻日既,寻日我约咗以前既初中同学啊SAM出离吖嘛.啊SAM过咗离aus两个几月,之前初中毕业之后就几乎无点见过,直到高考嗰阵匆匆咁见咗一面.之后都无点联络过啦,后离听佢讲话就嚟过离SYD读书,不过佢过咗离之后我都揾5倒佢,系上个星期先发医猫畀佢联系翻炸!

 

跟住出到去,你知CENTRAL STATION嗰度多出口噶啦,原来我地去咗唔同既出口等.....我仲要好例牌咁迟到..真唔好意思..(222~~其实我想改迟到E个陋习好耐噶啦...无奈始终都爱迟到...),后离我打电话比佢,讲咗一大轮先搞清楚佢响边度.

 

呵呵,跟住一见倒佢,发觉佢同以前都无咩点变到,都系好爽朗好搞笑咁,不过佢以前得意D,而E+就睇得出成熟咗少少咯...系少少炸...其实都无咩点变,哈哈...

唔知大家知唔知,我初中高中嗰阵响学校都系非常非常之少同我倾得埋既异性同学,可能比人感觉高斗难接近啦,所以大部分男仔都唔敢同我讲嘢既.但系今次一见翻SAM,就好似好鬼熟咁一开始一直倾足全程..可能好似佢话斋,好难得去到咁远仲可以见倒一个以前既同学啦.~~~

 

然后就带SAM周围行吓,同埋等佢可以熟悉吓CITY既路,记得我初离嗰阵,都觉得CENTRAL TOWN HALL嗰度好似迷宫咁,D路四通八达噶,嗰阵仲周不时荡失路...然后本来捻住介绍佢去FISH MARKET嗰度食SASHIMI噶...点知去到先知道人地已经准备收档啦...不过啊SAM好随和咯,话唔紧要,去过第度一样姐,跟住我地就从TOWN HALL行翻去CENTRAL食日本嘢咯...去到TOWN HALL,啊SAM话好耐都无见过咁多人啦,有D响GZ北京路既感觉,跟住话好中意周围D建筑同感觉.

 

其实我地对GZ同aus既比较同埋自己前途既睇法都有共同点噶.而且我真系几佩服佢咯,佢真系好识捻.好多人离到AU之后,都会怨闷,嗌住要走咁.但SAM就话好想出离外面见识吓,而且想学到好叻先翻GZ见下朋友,但最终都想留低响度.我呢,虽然都深明前途重要E个道理,而且知道可以出国E个机会好难得,但系好多时就唔可以好似佢咁乐观啦!

 

后离因为我六点钟要去一间所谓既FASHION店度interview,所以后离都几赶吓,而且我仲未知道间嘢既具体位置响边咯...好在啊SAM好鬼S好人,同我一齐落train,送到我出闸口,跟住话洗唔洗同我一齐去...哈哈...咁我犹豫咗一吓,就拉埋佢一齐去啦...但系就非常之唔好意思咯...

 

因为约咗我嗰个BOSS迟咗大半个钟离,跟住我地就百无聊赖咁周围行,继续吹水.跟住讲翻初中D嘢,都真系几怀念噶...哈哈哈...同埋果然响佢地嗰班男仔之中,我系劲难接近噶咯...最记得佢话:"嗰时唔系唔想同你讲嘢啊,而系觉得大家好似唔同你嗰个世界咁,你嗰阵时就鬼死咁成熟,嗰阵你都唔合群既!"哇咔咔咔...无错无错,初中嗰阵既我的确系咁,除咗啊敏同几个特别亲密既F之外,对其他人真系有D视若无睹,觉得其他人好幼稚,细我好多咁样,而且会无拉拉发嬲噶窝..而自己D朋友,好少话系同学离噶咯,多数都响出面识既..捻翻起其实E+我D性格都算改变咗不少啦挂...

 

后离个BOSS到咗,(讲翻起间"FASHION店",系卖D中韩日既精品啊,化妆品啊,公仔啊...之类好多好得意既嘢既!)SAM就响外面等我啦.我以为就咁见一见,问你几个问题就走得噶嘛.点知马上就开始开工啦...我仲以为试工姐,点知八点几嗰阵仲做梗,而啊SAM已经兜咗个圈翻离,我仲未走得,然后我就出去叫佢不如走先啦,因为唔知要等到几时,而且外面好冻啊.跟住佢话唔紧要啦,等开就等埋咁.仲买咗支COKE比我....感动ed呢!

后离响嗰度做既另一个女仔Amelie同我讲,今晚可能通霄噶,话叫我叫我个朋友走先啦..后离我问吓个BOSS,果然系啊...佢话会做到凌晨三点几...哇...顶!我拿拿声打个电话叫啊SAM唔好等咯...真系好鬼唔好意思啊....等咗咁耐,外面又冻...222...不过下次请你食嘢啊吓...!!!本来哩次出离,话晒我到SYD既时间长D,都好应该尽吓地主之怡请佢食嘢噶嘛,点知比佢抢先埋单...哈哈...bt next time will be my treatgar lah!!

 

跟住讲翻份工就阴公咯...因为佢间铺开咗无耐,入咗劲多新货,所以我地就要将D旧货移走好大部分,将D新货摆上去.顶.讲就讲摆咁简单,其实仲有好多嘢要做噶!!开头仲比D好得意好可爱既饰品带动吓D工作情绪,不过后离越做越夜,越离越攰...凌晨一点,三点,五点....早上七点,八点,一直到十点...终于BOSS开口话我叫我同Amelie翻去休息先...顶!我地已经连续通顶工作16小时啦!!当我地超人咩...仲要无double pay....我真系想SSSS啊!!!

 

后离就同Amelie一齐行,讲咗一轮BOSS既不是之后,交换咗电话,就各自拖住疲惫既身心归家啦....唉....

 

翻倒离...本来想上吓网先,但真系发觉不行啦....眼训到鬼咁!就拿拿临熄机觉G...训到下午四点几五点,起身...冲咗杯HOT CHOCOLATE,然后上离整SP咁囖....

 

睇我咁辛苦都不忘写吓SP(仲要写咗超长噶播.),交代吓自己无聊既近况,你地班嘢就好应该复吓我讲翻D安慰既说话啦....哈哈哈....

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

背景音乐<ENDLESS STORY>系嗰日你地行入离嗰阵...间店播住既嗰首歌离噶....都系我去嗰度咁耐,唯一一首熟悉既歌...当E段熟悉既旋律响起嗰阵,我就FELT到你D眼神投向咗我嗰边...可能算系缘分挂...

希望你对我认真噶啦...不过我系唔会对你认真噶....有D嘢重要既系过程,而唔系结果...

 

唉...扯太远了啦!!!

 

最近嘅生活.......好似好一团糟咯....杂乱无章....唉....!!

 

无端端意志消沉....!!!

 

嗯嗯...迷上咗<<NANA>>(漫画版ar!!)...好鬼中意嗰只...连续几日不断咁睇...可惜在线睇好鬼慢啊!!

 

于是我就好鬼有心机咁走去漫画店嗰度借咗第6---12集翻离...半日之内已经睇晒啦....但其他嗰D又比人借咗...只好继续耐心咁上线睇啦.........

 

吖吖...好鬼中意NANA D性格啊...仲好中意莲REN...同埋拓实TAKUMI...好鬼迷人啊...迷人到拿命嗰种...搞到我对漫画公仔好似有咗感情咁...次次见到有REN同TAKUMI既页面就睇得鬼S咁认真...!!

 

(事实上E+都以极慢既速度等梗一页页既<NANA>load出离...好痛苦啊!!)

 

不过如果好快睇完既话,我一定会觉得好失落噶...就好似以前睇完爱情片,都会无故觉得失落咁样...

 

 

 

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